For Such a Time as This

Life is too short,

A vapor, gone, in the blink of our eyes.

This is my desire; time well spent in His court,

To hear whispers of how I am the true apple of His eyes.

To be refined as I give Him satisfying undivided devotion.

In awe, at last, there is one enthralled with my beauty,

A love, rich with romance, which now has my attention,

All of me, clinging to His incomprehensible, irresistible, display of beauty.

Today I let Him canvas His affairs on my heart,

With no regrets, the time is now, to go, to be in love

With a King, for His kingdom He has set me a part.

That the world may see His, incomparable, true love.

No one in this world has affection so perfect.

So I aim for Him alone to have my Spirit, and my body,

Because to Him I was exceptionally more than worth it.

Proved true, through all the blood, scars, torn flesh that stained His body.  

I am His, for such a time as this.

No watching the clock to wait for the “right one”

But instead I’ll fight, I’ll stand for love beyond the midnight kiss.

For what’s true, I’ll go for Him who called me Chosen one.

From (Purple) “Skies to Oceans’ Deep, your Love Goes on.”

I once tweeted (because twitters a thing); “I want to have a nation-shaking mindset.” I have yet, at nineteen, to fully or wholly, understand such an intricate declaration. All the while, not fully having a handle on my words, my desire cannot possibly be shifted.

I do want to have a nation shaking mindset! 

“Now glory be to God, who by his mighty power at work within us is able to do far more than we would ever dare to ask or even dream of—infinitely beyond our highest prayers, desires, thoughts, or hopes.” Ephesians 3:20 (TLB)

I want to dare to ask God for big things. I want to trust, completely, in His undefeated power and know He is big. I want my prayers to sound more impossible than a purple sky, because I want the world to see God’s work in my life. I want there to be no doubt to those around me (everywhere in the world) that the God I serve is big, and real. So very real.

When John Goddard was fifteen years old He wrote out a lifelong goal list. On this unique “bucket list” one of his goals was; Visit the Moon.  Yes, I agree, that would be quite an adventure! An adventure that, when John was fifteen, no one had ever experienced. An adventure, a mere dream, which was not at all impossible or unreachable, it just simply, at that time, had not yet been enjoyed.

There are things, in our life (my life), that have yet to be enjoyed because, we (I) never dare to ask. “Now glory to God,” not just because He deserves all glory, but because He can send men to the moon. And “infinitely beyond.”

How about this:

“The Spirit of the Sovereign Lord is on me, because the Lord has anointed me to proclaim good news to the poor. He has sent me to bind up the brokenhearted, to proclaim freedom for the captives and release from darkness for the prisoners, to proclaim the year of the Lord’s favor and the day of vengeance of our God, to comfort all who mourn, and provide for those who grieve in Zion—to bestow on them a crown of beauty instead of ashes, the oil of joy instead of mourning, and a garment of praise instead of a spirit of despair. They will be called oaks of righteousness, a planting of the Lord for the display of his splendor.” Isaiah 61:1-4 (ALL OVER THE WORLD)

That in and of itself is beyond me. Infinitely beyond.  Is all for His splendor, so I am confident that He is almost offended when we ask for less than He wants to give.

God: I’ll give you that, but is that all you want. Are you sure?

One thing I am certain of, having a nation-shaking mindset, begins with knowing who owns the cattle on a thousand hills. *Psalm 50:10

It is easy to step out in faith, to write out big ideas, have an unrealistic vision board, talk to anyone, be light in the darkest places, fix your eyes on things unseen, give outrageously, do things that make sense in the light of eternity, hope for the best, and believe for purple skies, when you realize God really is Big. Big, may not suffice, but He is certainly above and beyond all that we can ask.

Since being in Cambodia, I have learned, that seeing the infinite beyond only happens when I see Him first. It is freeing to put Him first. The possibilities become indeed endless, and it is easy to recognize His impossible grace. Grace that waits for me patiently to say: “I want a nation-shaking mindset.” Grace that meets me when I say that with the wrong motives and reminds me of His splendor and points me to His glory. Grace that invites me to walk along side Jesus as He shakes the world. Grace that teaches me to love all nations, as I begin to learn that that is His heart. Grace that wants to be showcased to all of the world, and Grace that allows me to be His vessel in this world. Grace that perfects that which concerns me, and generously canvases His concerns on my heart. Grace, perfect grace, possible grace, that truly means “Ask and you shall receive,” when I see Him first. And as I see Him first, grace allowing me to see much more than purple skies, but nations shaking at the name of Jesus Christ.

 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0mBm_Fy0Dro

*Listen to this song and meditate on your big dreams. Write them down. Know, without a doubt God is big. Put Him first, and dare today to ask.

fears, flaws, and all my failures.

I am nothing without you.

I have no one besides you.

I, Lacy Beach, am flawed. I am often prideful, selfish, lazy, unwilling, ungrateful, unproductive, irresponsible, impatient, and searching for validation from others. I fail people. I fail test. I fail family. I fail friends. I fail Cambodia. I fail leaders.  It is a waging war to walk by faith and to let there be nothing besides Him.

However, I have been reminded in my “I” moments that “I” have been crucified with Christ and “I” no longer live but He (Christ) lives in me. (Galatians 2:20) “I”, Lacy Beach, no longer live. The strength and dignity that I am clothed in, was bestowed by He who lives in me. It is a strength and dignity so radiant that only points to Jesus. The world sees the beauty of He who lives, not “I” who no longer lives. Because, “I” is often prideful, selfish, lazy, unwilling, ungrateful, impatient, and searching for validation from others. “I” is weak. So weak. “I” has nothing to offer but filthy rags. It is in the humbling moments of weakness that “I” am reminded that His power is made perfect. Because, He, who lives in me, has undefeated power.

He says to “I”; “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” 2 Corinthians 12:9

That is when I am reminded that, “I” is nothing without Him and that “I” has no one besides Him. That my perfection would deter the cross of its undefeated power. Because my life is about His undefeated power.

He is always, giving, selfless, productive, pursuing, thankful, patient, and kind. He is never boasting, always validating, and constantly loving. He never fails. He is full of grace and mercy. He is not looking for perfection. He is looking for;

“Here “I” am.”

I am full of fears, flaws, and failures; But “Here I am.”

*There has been a lot of “I” moments in Cambodia. A lot of facing my flaws and recognizing that I am weak. But all the more I boast that His grace truly is sufficient in my life. In these moments I wonderfully see Him as undefeated. Although the journey gets harder it is getting easier to say; “I am nothing without you and I have no one besides you.”